I miss Colleen

-She's honestly the most affectionate woman I've dated/seen/whatever: If I have a back ache she rubs it. You don't realize how much a guy that does manual labor needs that on occasion. It's great aknowlagement that you care for your man. Many a woman that I've given flowers to or done things for since I cared for them and rarely got anything back in return.

-She's also the most responsive: I've had women that had probably been jaded with BAD experiences so why not take it out on the next guy... or every guy after.

-She's not a woman who NEEDED to be the center of everyones attention: she just wants to be the center of MY attention and yet realizes she can't always be. I dunno, I grew out of the attention whore phase a while ago. I just want to be a attention slut for one lady and that's it. But they also have to understand it's a give and take. Being military, a brother, son, cousin and friend to many I can't always be with her. If she has such problems I can let her attention stray for a while also.

-For once I have a woman who respects when I tell her something: she's being stalked and needs to find help. Especialy if the guy is just trying to cause shit with the relationship. If she plays into it then she's just trying to be the one above. Trust is the key ingredient to any relationship.

-She doesn't try to make me jelious when we're fighting: Making some random guy on the beach sound like he's trying to take her home and that she's being coaxed into it... Or going to the bar and leaving a lot of info out on what happened "that night". Piddly shit like getting laid by someone like your friend or a random person when you fight.

-Isn't trying to become a dependant: Asking at the most inopprotune times "if you got me pregnant would you marry me?"

-Colleen respects my point of view but still being able to show her own: you don't have to believe the same thing as me! just respect what I think.

-One must know what they want before they go searching: many people just wander around, going out and seeking what they want. There is nothing wrong with that, but they do it in the worst ways. Meeting people while drunk isn't realy meeting someone, know what I mean?

In the past almost year that she and I have talked I noticed she fit into all of these categories in a positive way. It's gotten to the point that I actualy trust her. That's rare with dating woman. I have seen too much dumb shit in my days. I never realy did meet the "right ones" or there were situations that messed them up. I think I only realy had 2 other good ladies.

One the situation messed us up, that was syntheticmm</span>  .. It was realy hard for us to have an actual healthy relationship with her in texas and I in Hawaii... She being pregnant and me being on deployment as the youngest man there. Not even literaly did I get the "shit jobs" I realy did get the shit jobs the plumbers didn't want to mess with. 

quixoticgurl_26  and I were destined to have problems from the beginning. We started off on the wrong foot with how we met. And our life situations with me leaving and her living accomidations made life uneasy. It was hard to seperate from her when I had grown so attached. She was the first woman that I had a steady contact with and was honestly my first serious relationship

I never wish any of them ill fate, even Beatlejewse. But if there were ever such a thing as "runners up" Those are the two girls. I keep myself at a distance from all former/ex girlfriends now after the incedent with Beatlejewse and quixoticgurl_26</span> stuff like that just isn't kosher. I hope they can understand and respect me and my boundries as I am doing the same.

So yeah, I admit there have been woman in the past but eather I, or they weren't ready before but this woman is everything I've wanted. To be treated well, respected, worshiped, loved, cared for, and most of all she knew what she wanted.

As stated before this will probably be one of my last posts on here.

I have found someone to listen to me. Bitches, gripes, complaints, stories, wishes, dreams and wonders.

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